My Doughty Life

Where my strength comes from

Something has been on my heart for over a week and I wanted to somehow put it into words.

Since we became foster parents, and especially since Chloe’s death, I am told often how strong people think I am. I never quite know how to respond. I do not feel strong. In fact, most days, I feel week and very insecure (holy crow does this mamma have some big insecurities).

The reason I can move forward. The reason that I am not curled up in a corner crying over my broken heart and the “unfairness” of life is that I know where the strength comes from.

I am grasping a hold of God, my Strong Tower. I have no doubt in my mind that any amount of strength I poses in this journey comes directly from God. He lifts me up and wraps angelic arms of comfort around me (this is a mental picture He has given me many times when at my lowest). He has gotten me through. He has comforted my soul the most when it was the rawest. He has given me enough glimpses of His plan in my life that I eagerly keep putting one foot in front of the other.

I appreciate the encouragement from my friends and family. Even if you do not think you could do this, knowing you support us means a lot.

Just know what when you see strength in me, you are seeing a glimpse of God’s work here on earth.

Joshua 1:9: “Have I not given you your orders? Take heart and be strong; have no fear and do not be troubled; for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go,”

Where we are at

Where we are at?: For those of you who are not close family and friends, you may wonder where we are at on this journey. We are officially licensed foster parents for almost 2 years now. We have had 3 different placements and have adopted our daughter. In addition to our spirited 13 month old, we are currently fostering an amazing lil man. Thank you for your support and encouragement. Crafting is currently my stress relief in what little down time we still have.

Sneak Peek “Behind The Scenes” – Homemade Light Box

I was taking a ton of jewelry pictures today and decided to step back and bit an let you see the homemade light box that I use to take the pictures. I put this together after reading the following post:

My differences:

Instead of fabric batting, I use a white cloth shower curtain. I have two small clamp lights with “day time light” bulbs and am using this tripod. It is not the greatest, but it works and was cheap. I am shooting with a normal point-and-shoot camera and crop/touch up lighting differences in Photoshop.

Here is the set-up:

Clip Light - Right Side

Clip Light - Right Side

Light Box

Light Box

Clip Light - Left Side

Clip Light - Left Side

My backdrop: a woven cloth napkin and an extra linoleum tile from our kitchen floor (left behind by the previous home owners). The only thing I needed to buy for this set-up was the tripod and “day time light” bulbs.